Mr.Browning, you are right about my first language not being English, I was born and raised in the city of Montreal, My mom was french, and my dad english, I used to speak in french to mom and english to dad! as you get older, there are times I will make errors in both languages, Plus the last time and this time which I have had this smell, is making me very tense because there is no real reason to my knowledge for it to be here! But that is very observant of you

There are a lot of things my Mother must have gone through being pregnant for me, and anything is possible, So I will try to find someone! but how can one truly tell if one is a fake or the Real thing?
Yesterday the smell was still there and it is so today as well! Let's say, I find someone who can do this and we discover that is the reason for this, because an event triggers this smell? how would I deal with it! or do you perhaps think, just the conscience knowledge of it may make it go away?
in the womb I guess logically, smell is not sensed in the same way as what we know it during our life, which is probably why I cannot truly describe the smell, it is nothing anyone smells on a day to day basis!
What scares me a little is, what if I find nothing to answer for this smell while with this person, should I consult another? or do you have another idea you could share with me which may help me?
Just to clarify to some who may read what I wrote, I do not drink alcohol, I do not use drug's except the occasional aspirin for a headache which is to say very seldom, I love my privacy, so I seldom go into public. I am happy with my life.
This smell not ever brought me negative emotions before, I always felt my dad simply showing his presence when I had a cold, was just to comfort me and let me know he was there for me, until 2008 that is, when at the time I had no cold, and this time there is none either! so in the past the smell always gave me a comforting feeling, now though since 2008, it gives me a feeling of "insecurity" which is the only word I can really call it!
I would have to ask the person consulted though, why this smell would from 1980 to 2008 bring a good feeling, and then feelings change?
Sure! I do miss not having a Mom or Dad, or at not having ever had a sister or brother, but you move on, sometimes I remember and I'll be sad, wipe the tears and get on with my day, but this usually happens during the Holiday like as for many people! but it was not and is not something I go through often, because i realized a long time ago, it's just the way things are in this life! And plus I have 2 great children, which by the way, do keep me busy

Caroline