Since I was a child, I have had this viewpoint - i.e., that matter was the result of interfering energy waves. I remember sitting in church at 7 and asking if, when they referred to God with the beard, did they just metaphorically mean whatever force it was that created seemingly constant patterns (not said so eloquently obviously) - e.g., the force that kept a nose a nose for a set amount of perceived time. As I got older, I started "seeing" more - patterns, conceptual ideas of higher dimensions (things people told me I shouldn't be able to envision), so I simply told myself I must be wrong and was just being imaginative. As I started to gain more academic knowledge of physics (still very basic), everything I learnt seemed to point in another direction (particles). So I thought I was just stupid and dropped out of engineering. Wish I'd stayed long enough to explore theoretical physics
I've never really thought I was smart, because I didn't have millions of mathematical formulas I could pull out and use to explain the things I seemed to just KNOW and I didn't think I'd ever be smart enough to do those things you see geniuses do in movies where they are basically writing in another language, so I never tried. But I do know that, apparently innately, by a very young age, I was building structures that took what I can now recognize was a pretty complex understanding of physical/mechanical laws...I just could never tell anyone why or how I knew. I presumed everyone had the same knowledge and never questioned it until later in my life when I started realizing maybe I saw matter quite differently than most people I knew. Does that make sense? Is that weird? Is it weird to have what feels like an innate understanding of physics without knowing why? To be both smart and stupid? Does everyone have this knowledge and just lack the ability to communicate it like me?Statistics: Posted by RelentlessAlarm — 09 Jun 2012, 03:58
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